What If I Could Do It All Over Again?

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As a few of my children near the end of their learning adventure, I can’t help but reflect on the years we’ve spent together. The fun, the adventures, the friends, and, yes, the struggles. I suppose it’s natural to wonder what life – homeschooling life – might have looked like if we’d done things a little differently. But if I could go back and do it all over again, would I change anything?

Perhaps maybe one or two things. Perhaps…

I would have liked to be more purposeful in nature journaling; take more hikes and stress less over tests; there are resources I would have loved to own; books I wish I’d read; and places we could have visited. I would take back my moments of weakness, unkindness, and impatience; replacing them with a more Christ-like representation of myself.

But then the Lord reminds me this is not possible. Not only because time-machines have yet to be invented, but because each step of our journey has been just that. Ours. That cannot be replaced. And I don’t want to take back a moment. Not the spills, the mistakes, or the heartache.

As I reflect on each memory I might like to redo, the Lord speaks to my heart and reminds me of the beauty which followed. The life lessons, the spiritual gifts we gained, and the compassion instilled in us. For every resource we made-do without, we learned ingenuity and resourcefulness. While we might not have gone on many vacations, we’ve visited every haunt in our area and could probably write our own field trip guide. No, we didn’t hike or nature journal when the kids were younger. (I can hear the collective gasp.) But we are making up for lost time and my children have a great appreciation for God’s creation.

Our learning adventure has not been perfect. But the Lord calms my heart and reminds me no one’s journey is and yet everyone’s journey is. It is perfect for them. All those wonderful things were meant for just us. All of the hard, the challenging, were specifically designed to help our family grow.

As we launch into another calendar year, I am encouraged. One of our children will be graduating, and we will no longer have elementary students in our home. My heart grieves just a little knowing this part of our journey is almost over. Yet I take joy in knowing it has been a blessed adventure, and it’s not over quite yet!

How blessed are those whose way is blameless, Who walk in the law of the LORD.
~ Psalm 119:1

We’re curious… If you could start your learning adventure over again, what would you like to do differently?

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6 thoughts on “What If I Could Do It All Over Again?

  1. I’ve had many many moments of self doubt that I did the homeschooling thing correctly. It’s a never ending black hole of quandary. You do the best you can and teach them to love the Lord, and HE works it all out- despite our shortcomings. My youngest graduated homeschool this past year and moved 516 miles from home for the perfect starter job for an 18 yr old.
    Go with the flow Mom, keep doing a great job- some of us have collectively decided that if you don’t question yourself you prolly aren’t doing it right.
    Many blessings on chapters coming!

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  2. I’m with you. There are things I would change like my losing of my patience and being over stressed about some things. But the time and experience I’ve had with my kids I wouldn’t change for anything!!! Thanks for the great post!

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  3. Love hearing a veteran’s point of view. We are only on year four, but I’d say I’d like to live more in the moment, not sweat the small stuff, trust God more, and demonstrate more to my children what living out the fruit of the spirit looks like.

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